There's so much beauty it could make you cry

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 17:40:17 GMT

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Sat, 09 Sep 2006 07:52:29 GMT

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lookin foward to the year!

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 03:27:54 GMT

I made a list of things to look foward to at work the other day,
I suddenly feel the need to type them out in a place where they won't get lost:

SEPTEMBER:
* Kind Of Like Spitting house show
*Adam Green and jeffrey lewis!
*The Science Of Sleep comes out
*rogue wave!
*m.ward!
*big sur camping
*less crowded ocean line ups

OCTOBER:
*Detour Fest.
*San Francisco to see Evlelyn and stace and architecture in helsinki and clap your hands say ya!
*pink mountaintop
*Halloweeeeen!!!
*fallen leaves
*wool skirts
*beautiful hiking weather
*DEVENDRA'S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK GOSH!

NOVEMBER:
*Thanksgiving=ALL MY FRIENDS COME HOME!
*chicago trip!
*chai teas
*sweaters

DECEMBER:
*WINTER time!=
snow trip: snow men making, snowball fights, sledding, baking, warm fires, cozies
*CANADA TRIP by TRAIN... montreal castles and beauty
*Hanukah!
*finally get my camera
*hot cocoa
*warm clothing
*empty ocean
*coats

i don't wanna get too ahead of myself with the list....

but intermidst all that goodness will be trips to santa cruz, san jose, sandiego/Mexico, one idaho jont, and more sf.
lots of train riding, lots of exploring, lots of smiles!

the seasons are wonderful and i'm ever so excited!

it's all nice all nice on ice!

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 18:29:21 GMT

(brandon boyd or stacey!? who knows)

i thought we were supposed to jump

we're 18!

(thank you to nicole and stacey...they took those pictures)

cowkids and native americans...was the time of my life! wahoo!

so far this is the best summer ever, this is my first time not doing something/not being with someone, i just got home from surfing, swell starts tomarow, starting work at clout tomarow....come visit me if you go to zuma! i'll be across the street selling clothing or something like that! i love you all...yay!

Mon, 15 May 2006 01:20:52 GMT

On love:

One day
(Two days if you must)
You will walk into a room
And that room will cease to exist.

You will not see it crumble
But it will
And it has been
Since the day that you were born
That room has been melting
Into the index of time

Waiting for (you)
For your soul to echo
Through to the very seed of
All that exists
Of all that creates
Existence

The room has been
waiting
For you
To
allow it
to disintegrate into dust

and
When you find the person you love
That person is all that exists
And the room is no longer there
Not at all

Can you feel it?
Perhaps not
Not yet
But in that moment
Their eyes are all that are beaming
The light fixtures from the room are gone
The sun is gone
And the only light you see
Is the light radiating from that person
Warming your soul
An inescapable glow that is capable
Of covering the entire world with bliss

And the entire world can and will be at peace
As that room ceases to exist

This is not a random act
It can’t be solved with science
This is nothing
This is everything.

gibby gaahhhh

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 06:21:54 GMT

You know that life is treating you right when your mothers only worry is that Devendra Banhart could potentially be a child molester...

Tomarow= Santa Barbera Zoo + picnic + beach +Kind of like spitting (playing at a church)!

it ryhmes!

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 05:03:18 GMT

It’s a game of tic-tac-toe
And I can’t get three in a row
There is no completion here
There’s no completion anywhere
It’s a game of tic-tac-toe
And I can not loose or win
So the game just keeps continuing
I begin and begin again
Am I too smart to loose
Or am I just too dumb to win
Each time I think I’m finished
It repeats, I must re-begin
Am I too smart to loose
Or am I simply too dumb to win
Am I too dumb to loose
Am I too smart to give in?

that's why fante should always be remembered!..

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 20:52:39 GMT

dearest livejournal,

I send you my fondest apologies for neglecting you. Life has been too happy and amazing to begin to describe or to have time to describe. Disneyland weekend was sensational. The surf has been "epic". Leaving for sacramento tomarow; be back on presidents night! Belle and sebastian next month, and life is too good to me. I love you all.

love,

Dani Nico Fine
bhahaha.

i got really into wrestling!

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 04:26:31 GMT

I CAN NOT WAIT!

i can not wait!

this weekend was the best thing

EVER!

I've done everything except accept.

my mistfortunes
are mistaken
for masterpieces
my fragile failures
and hopeless moments
have constantly been laced
gracefully
amongst my
greatest accomplishments
and fleeting joys
proving
that I
have been
completely
over credidated

over credidated for my joy
over credidated for my smile
over credidated for every step I have taken
in a positive direction.

because I
have constantly
been misread
mistaken
misplaced.

but not this year.
this year I will strive
to live my life
without the confines
of consistant happiness
I will try
to understand myself
rather than
being understood

I will look my misfortunes in the eye
I will understand my failures
and learn
they do not need to be laced
with grace

I will understand
that it is okay to fall
and that moments can simply be miserable
rather than being wrapped up
in yellow celephane
and tied with a shiny white ribbon.

and when my ship is sailing
in a peacefull sea of bliss
I will be able to feel
nothing but pure joy
and when my heart is sinking
into the waves of misery
I will not be ashamed
to be hurt
to be sad
because
if I accept both feelings
seperately
I will find the greatest joy

I will understand
that I do not need
to edit out the sad parts

that I simply must accept
every emotion
that spins around my over credidated life.

(we had to write about new years resolutions..ey)

tomarow i get to teach charles bukowski to the entire class,
i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait!

upcoming:

of montreal
jenny lewis
cat power
the elected (perhaps)
colin meloy
belle and sebastian!/The new pornographers!

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 05:26:07 GMT

White Dog

I went for a walk on Hollywood Boulevard.
I looked down and there was a large white dog
walking beside me.
his pace was exactly the same as mine.
we stopped at traffic signals together.
we crossed the side streets together.
a woman smiled at us.
he must have walked 8 blocks with me.
then I went into a grocery store and
when I came out he was gone.
or she was gone.
the wonderful white dog
with a trace of yellow in its fur.
the large blue eyes were gone.
the grinning mouth was gone.
the lolling tongue was gone.

things are so easily lost.
things just can't be kept forever.

I got the blues.
I got the blues.
that dog loved and
trusted me and
I let it walk away.

-charles

i'm doing a poetry presentation on this and i'm excited!

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 09:34:09 GMT

So far everything is beautiful this winter break!

it began with a swell
and surfing some lovely waves

!

Today i got a record playa
and some bookies
and records
and most importantly

a hugeeeo painting of my favorite author, by the one and only
richard l. fine (el gulcho)

i love him and cherish it and haven't stopped smilling!

tonight was happpy!

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 05:16:14 GMT

It began with attempted surf session with Josh at malibu.
no waves.
we ate tacos instead!
we went and looked at puppies
and hung around
the book store.
i finally gave in
i bought diary.

nicole and i walked up a bitty mountain
we stopped midway to the top
and ate and talked and listened to musics!
i love her...

I had work that night,
ate pizza/watched polar express/laughed/drank hot chocolate
with tons of kids.
then collin and i got dessert
i was home by 11...richard and i
watched ifc documentaries.

Saturday morning i went surfing with the brothers.
it was sensational, small, but hilariously fun
i got home by 10 and ate brekkie at the deli
i read diary out in the sun.
i love that book
so far it's flawless!

then sarah came over
we went to santa monica to take pictures
for a story i wrote
and it was great fun
i finally got my poloroid camera back
from the movie theatre
the owner is the nicest man ever
i love him
we met nice people
an watched a devendra banhart lookalike
sing
he smiled at us and winked at us
he was dreamy
i loved him!

sarah and i had dinner at islands with mom
it was delicious
then jerett and jon came over
and nicole
and we went for a nightswim
and it was happy
me and jerett had a cute sleepover
and woke up early to go to the flea market

me jerett nicoley and stace all got good items!
stacey said "ramzy and meed"
records, sweaters, dressies, necklaces, boots, books, and other nice things were bought.
we then ate cheesecake factory

by the time we got home
me and jerett were so sleepdeprived we fell asleep
at 3
and woke up at 5

i read more

this is boring i'm sorry

it was a simply good weeeeekend :)
and i'm so simply happy

devendra!

highlight of santa monica:
after writing this a little old man walked by and read it
we proceeded to have the best bukowski discussion of my life!
he claims that the mother of one of bukowski's children lives down the street,
and has long hair..and a terrible beard that she refuses to shave.
he was so senile and happy and wonderful!
i loved that man

boom swagger!

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 04:52:15 GMT

ha.ha.ha!

good weekend

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 06:02:51 GMT

last nightmy mother brother and i went and saw this man...
Donovan hasn't changed, one pinch!
his voiced sounded just the same
and he opened up with herdy gerdy
and played every happy beautiful song ever
it was about a 2 hour set...
he went so long he needed a 20
minute intermission!!!

i haven't really stopped smiling!

*alex and i were voted most unique in the yearbook=ridiculously sillly

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 03:50:56 GMT

we all dream profusely every night, yet by morning we've forgotten ninety percent of what went on. That's why poets are such important members of society. Poets remember our dreams for us." "Are you a poet?" "I'm an outlaw." "Are outlaws important members of society?" " Outlaws are not members of society. However, they may be important to society. Poets remember our dreams, outlaws act them out."

I'm really glad I am a poet
and I'm really really glad i have found my outlaw

this weekend was nothing short of a-mazing!
from beach time top shop time
and everything in between
it's been sensational

i love everyone that was a part of it
(that means YOU french)

YAYAYAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nice underwear hearts girl..

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 07:01:44 GMT

At work today
I took a pause
To escape the days
Enormous chaos
And when I looked
Around I realized
How enchanting
It is to be alive.

The sky was painted
A glowing gold
By the suns organic rays
And the full moon
Was still in the sky
It’d be planted there for days.

The gentle breeze
Whispered in my ear
That everything
Was in its right place
And autumn’s sweet leaves
Danced through that wind
Bringing cheer to my
Rosy face.

The hills were green
Like the building blocks
With which the
Children at my work play
The hard concrete floor
Was a cold dark black
And the sidewalk
Was the color of clay.

Some kids played life changing
Handball games
That ignited newfound bliss
While others
Crossed monkey bars for
The first time
Thinking
“There’s no more to life than this.”

I knew the secret that eventually
Their hands would begin to hurt
That soon their mothers
Would scold them
For the untidy amounts of dirt
And I knew that pain would
Also come
Through the pounding of the rubber ball
And the brass metal of the bars
Would bring blisters, calasses and all.

But all the pain in the world,
They’ll find,
Is worth it for these joys
The simplicity of being
A little girl
Or being a little boy

And amidst all of
Their yelling
Their ranting and
Giggles too
I rolled down the hill and
Heard silence
On this autumn afternoon.

And the children kept on laughing
Until they simply
Felt no pain
And I kept laughing with them
Because in my heart
I still feel the same.

i am happy!

this weekend is going to start out beautifully
at the beach with jerett
and then comes lovey time with eugene and nicoley
and hopefully a little sarah taylor time that is
MUCH needed
then saturday morning= surfing aquatic vibes with chad
and saturday sleeepyover with stace
followed by SHOPPPPPPPPPPING at the flea market
and SWINGERS with staceypoooh!
=lovely happy blissfilled weekend

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 06:30:54 GMT

MOOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm such an awkward outcast it's rather pathetic!

aw

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 20:51:35 GMT

That is how I feel!
Tess I hope this makes you SMILE!

I was stressing over the fact that i had lost my copy of hamlet and my american poetry book.
this morning amanda came up to me and had my hamlet book (she found it in the parking lot!)
and then at nutrition i was buyinga muffin and i saw a poesy book sitting on the counter, i picked it up, and my name was in it!

this made me happy!

this weekend was sensational. youth and government was hilarious fun!

i get to surf tomarow!

and see jerrett on wednesday!

and be a happy child!!!!!!!!!!

YAY

when everybody loves me! i will never be lonely

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 22:16:02 GMT

there's so much beauty it could make you cry!

life is good.

i'm amazed

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 09:34:20 GMT

yes. handball really is the best game ever played...
yes i did beat all 10 kids in line, twice
and yes i did get to call boards!
(mind you i wasn't sleazy..i didn't whip out any slicies or watermelons)

dodging 9 year old boys for the love of the game
is what life is about

HAPPY HALLOWEEEEEN!
it was so beautiful to dance and play with you all!
especially stacey, the cowgirl to my indian

(more to come)

yay

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 02:35:06 GMT

we love food!!!

"WOOO" as conor would say

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 07:34:10 GMT

this weekend has been PHENOMINAL!
i'll update with pictures and details later:
but here's one blurb from it!

We met the youngster from PETER PAN!!!
we were in starbucks at the commans when we spotted him,
and i got very overwelmed!!! the most starstruck i've ever been,
i think it's because he was our age or something.
but i whispered to stacey "He has such beautiful eyes" but i said it way too loud
and he totallly heard me

so i started backing up over to nicole and kassi
but i didn't want to turn around i was busy looking at him
so i RAN into the starbucks metal sign
like completely tripped over it, while he was watching.

then we took a picture with him

and this picture proves it: i'm the creepiest person alive

i couldn't keep my eyes off of him
it was horribly funny!

i love you guys

bright eyes was smashin tonight and my tummy's full of warm chai and madeline cookies!

so good to be alive!

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 02:43:08 GMT

I hadn't seen Mr. Hall (my government teacher) in a about a weeek
cuz i got my teethies pulled..
and when i saw him today in my zero period poesy class,
he gave me a huge hug!!!
and everyone was shocked, well mainly my poetry teacher,
cuz he never gives hugs!

i'm so honored.

i love him

((pathetic))yes

pu pu pu leaseeeee come home!

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 18:34:02 GMT

I MISSS JEANNIE & HER SILLY FACES!!!

HA I'M FAT

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 03:26:05 GMT

loving life.

thank you to:

k.black, shamous, chad, kurt, nicoley and stacey for making me smile even though the smiles hurt!!!!

i loove youuuuuuuuus!